saosin - you're not alone

It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching
For any sign of the ones he used to love
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left)
And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone
There's more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies shes been fed
She's searching for no one (but herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is here
And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out

(There is more to know)

We're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

(So tell me)

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
You're not, you're not alone

错了再错

退到了绝境再退破碎到不能破碎
能挽回什么你就不肯说
我只能猜疑却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲绝望是你赐给的安慰
为何你说谎我却受惩罚
你不如就用刀刺下
我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错
不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你换着活你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破
爱或痛彼此纠结悲和我无法分解
厌倦的疲累成了一片黑
伤痛都已无法消灭
泪水滋润着泪水背叛是你另一种慰藉
完美的借口泪无辜留下
你不如用乱箭射吧
即使我头也不回这悲剧猛向我追
情愿你全部摧毁别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没
给我的爱像一根绳索
你放手却捆住了我
不甘心不闪躲全为了失真的承诺
为什么连谎言你也给刺破
为什么连谎言你也不说

what happen

sighx.. seems like recently i have been feeling so lack of self confidence.. scare of doing so much stuff..

maybe there's too much things happening in my life nw..

maybe all these while i do lack of self confidence but i just act like i can do it.. seems like i'm doing all these things not for myself but for my family and frens.. to prove to them.. haiz..

recently one of my fren wanted to drop out from U becos he found it too stressful, and also due to family and financial issues.. want to go out and work instead.. he think he has failed his parents.. even tot of committing suicide..

is this depression or stresS?

i dun really know what i want in life anymore now.. its like in a mess..
i wanna do well in sch.. but seems like i have a feelin no matter hw hard i try, i still wun be able to do it.. self belonging seems to be no where near me..

do i really wanna do this? do i........ sighx..

there seems to be so much out there waiting for me to do but yet i feel i am not capable of doing anything nw..

i wanna earn big money and be successful, take over my dad's business.. but can i?

can i really earn big money..

can i really be successful..

No is what i have been feeling lately..

doesn't seem to be motivated by anything anymore..

sighx....

and recently i think i have been spending so much i totally lack of self discipline on my spendings.. now i'm left with 10bucks till next mth.. hw to survive.. its only 9th of Sept..

hw to pump my petrol, pay my hp bill, top up cash card.. i can forgo my meals and just eat whatever i find at home.. but those expenses tt i have to spent.. where do i find income.. sighx.. and i still need to save up 2.3k..hw to save when i'm spending so much..

maybe its true, though i may have good income but i do spend alot too..
remember one of my fren actually help me "shuan ming" and was told, though i may have different incomes, but i do spend alot..sighx..

start to worry so much... worry financial issues, study issues, etc etc etc..

maybe i'm just stressed over the coming tests and sch and everything..
or maybe i'm just finding excuses for myself..

sighx..why do i write all these rubbish for....