New Battle

爱

2008-11-22T05:01:00.001+08:00

你还记得吗记忆的炎夏
散落在风中的已蒸发
喧哗的都已沙哑

没结果的花未完成的牵挂
我们学会许多说法
来掩饰不碰的伤疤

因为我会想起你
我害怕面对自己
我的意志总被寂寞吞食

因为你总会提醒
过去总不会过去
有种真爱不是我的

假如我不曾爱你
我不会失去自己
想念的刺钉住我的位置

因为你总会提醒
尽管我得到世界
有些幸福不是我的

你还记得吗记忆的炎夏
我终于没选择的分岔
最后又有谁到达

....

2008-11-16T16:52:00.000+08:00

我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说
你不要这么做
你不要看着我
说你已经知道怎么做
你很难受
我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛
再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

不要对我再说爱

2008-11-03T05:27:00.000+08:00

太多爱不明不白
我还在分手的那一天原地徘徊
太多事不明不白
不明白怎么笑着走出来

不要对我再说爱
你回来可是过去再也回不来
不要对我再说爱
我还在秋千上摇摆

太多人不明不白
我不想重新开始后
还想着原来
太多人不必等待
我不能给你确定的未来

不要对我再说爱
你回来可是过去回不来
不要对我再说爱
我还在秋千上来回摇摆

不要对我再说爱
我坦白一直忘不了原来
不要对我再说爱
我害怕我们再受到伤害

不要对我再说爱
你回来可是过去回不来
不要对我再说爱
就让我一个人静静摇摆

一段爱从不明白到明白
我的眼泪才慢慢流出来

不要哭

2008-11-01T02:49:00.003+08:00

不要哭
不要哭
你好傻
为了他不值得吧
不是说好要勇敢坚强
不要哭
我知道
你爱的和我一样
陷得太深而无法自拔
不要哭
你应该忘了他
别一再而再想着他说过就忘的话
不要哭
世界如此的大
不要因为一次的失败不敢再出发
不要哭
你不要哭不要哭
你不要哭不要哭
不要哭
no more tears no more tears
no more tears no more tears
那爱情让你无法分辨伪善和真假
但为他受过的伤
是成长的代价
不要哭
别再傻
为他这样值得吗
不是说好永远
no more tears

Exam is driving me crazy. Hope everything is over soon. I don't wanna fail again!!

真的,我没事

2008-10-06T04:44:00.000+08:00

On and on, the pain goes on
And it wouldn't just wouldn't die
我竟远比想像中软弱旦无能为力
对你的眼神选择了逃避恨自己恨自己
On and on, the pain lives on
It's hurting so much more
就像我被悔不当初的罪恶吞去
惩罚过后能否带来解脱 I'll be fine I'll be fine
So many cried, listening to God
让坚强不只是种伪装
So many lies, listening to you
天亮后 I will be fine
On and on, the pain goes on and
I just don't know how to cope
伸手抱住自己是否就能够不再空虚
最后信念别放弃 I will be fine I will be fine
So many cries, listening to you 希望你能再给我力量
So many lies, listening to you什么时候 I will be fine
当我再也不对任何事期待只剩下你只剩下你
有天当我舍弃一切见你请你要微笑不语
So many cries, listening to you希望你能再给我力量
So many lies, listening to you什么时候 I will be fine

B-day

2008-08-19T22:10:00.001+08:00

what do i do on the eve of my birthday?

studying for test!

ZZzz

Happy 24th Birthday Leland.

NDP 2008

2008-07-23T22:42:00.003+08:00

its the big birthday for the big girl once again.. with all the adverts and stuff showing about and reminding us singaporeans tt national day is round the corner. the wave of the white and red coloured flags in the wind and once awhile a little flag sticking out of a taxi.

just how little things to prove who we are and where we are even though we do hate it sometimes. personally it reminded me of the heart felt days during my participation in the 2006 NDP. it never fail to bring back a smile whenever i think about it. though it was tough, though i had to sacrifice so many weekends, it all seems worthwhile.

at least i know i did something for her bday for her. now its almost 2yrs down the road. everything still seem so real and present. remembering the songs, the planes flying past, the fireworks right over my head.

sweet..

and i would gladly say, 9th of August will always be the day where i never fail to say i'm proud to be a singaporean.

單數

2008-07-02T04:04:00.001+08:00

沉默玩具

2008-06-27T18:27:00.000+08:00

Results before exam

2008-04-08T14:26:00.001+08:00

MANAGEMENT ACCOUNTING & BUSINESS TUTORIAL HAND IN HD

COMMERCIAL LAW 1 TEST CR

MANAGEMENT ACCOUNTING & BUSINESS TEST PA

PRICES & MARKETS MCQ TEST HD

BUSINESS STATISTICS 1 TEST PA

**** - How could you bring him home

2008-04-07T16:55:00.001+08:00

YoH YOH

2008-02-21T01:12:00.002+08:00

hey hey... its been very long since i last blogged. i know i understand. i'm not dead yet its just tt i'm kinda lazy to blog ever since started sch. oh well... its the new year already. so many things on hand nw.. more and more busy.. tired.. not enuff slp. life still goes on..

anyway will try to blog as often as i can again. wahahhaha

got a cd from a fren today.. brought back the memory of this video clip tt i posted quite long ago. enjoy.. till the next entry.. take care and happy new year.

exam results

2007-12-01T20:03:00.000+08:00

NO Distinctions nor High Ds..

only manage 2 credits and a pass.
oh well.. what to do.. work harder next time..

Macroeconomics 1 CR
Marketing Principles PA
Introductory Accounting CR

怕什么

2007-11-15T00:32:00.000+08:00

came across this song.. nice one by jolin.. here's the mtv for it..

能感觉你手很暖和
能感觉你是特别的
当我的手被你牵着
在街头在风中放纵

随你到世界最尽头
随你上山去放烟火
当你唱着生日快乐
我感动你让我受宠

我不再怕什么躲什么
我只想知道你在想什么
请贴近我的心贴近我的耳朵
听你轻轻的轻轻的轻轻的说
到底我是你的什么

我不再怕什么躲什么
我只想知道你爱不爱我
现在我安静的贴在你的胸口
等你说听你说说爱我

我肯定你是爱我的
我肯定你是认真的
你会爱我天长地久
这世界一直为我们祝贺

说爱我(怕什么躲什么)
怕什么(我只想知道你爱不爱我)

2 down 1 to go..

2007-11-08T02:29:00.000+08:00

2 papers down.. 1 more to go this friday.. i have been so stress up studing for this exam..... there's PIMPLE ON MY FACE!~!~ ARRRHHHHHHHH!~

i dun really have pimples growing on my face.. sighx.. and worst thing is.. they are huge.. oh man.. this kinda sucks..

shagged out from studying..

just 1 more to go.. and i can

enjoy pool session on friday..
clubbing at Plush on saturday..
slacking at home on sunday..
start work on monday..
hmm..

kinda short for enjoyment.. but nonetheless its better den studying for these papers.. zz

happy birthday

2007-10-22T02:22:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to u..

cant help thinkin where were we 1 year ago..

having a break from my studies and standing by the window having my 1st cig for the day. listening to norah jones's rosie's lullaby..

felt kinda sad..

have i

2007-10-20T05:07:00.000+08:00

had a bad dream afew days back.. so bad i hope it never will happen.. have been having dreams this few days.. dunno why, maybe its the stress from my exams... its making me having difficulty slpin at nite.. thinking too much? or afraid of falling asleep and havin those dreams again

lying on the bed, i suddenly tot of something, have i done anything for the past 23yrs that made my parents proud of me?

i dun recall any.. what have i done for the past 23yrs to make my parents be proud of?
i dun remember any..

so much so that i want to do well for my uni and grad with good results, i too want to make my parents be proud of..

sighx...

feeling all down lately for the pass few mths...

not having much positive tots at all..

i feel useless as a son

i know my parents have high hopes for me though they dun say it, but i know how they feel..

and i am seriously very afraid to let them down.. they are getting old.. and i have never made anything to let them be proud of their son..

so damn stress with exams i often felt like giving up.. i've to force myself to study these few days.. but the more i force, the less i study..

nothing seems to be getting into my head..

i always dream of being someone great..

but...

i guess i have no confidence in myself anymore..

sighx..

my life feels blank from my point of view.. no colourful pictures..

Think..

2007-10-17T20:57:00.000+08:00

Got it from a blog which my fren intro.. read this.. its interesting.. at least it makes u relax awhile from whatever u are doing

_____________________
What am I doing wrong?

Okay, I'm tired of beating around the bush. I'm a beautiful (spectacularly beautiful) 25 year old girl. I'm articulate and classy. I'm not from New York. I'm looking to get married to a guy who makes at least half a million a year. I know how that sounds, but keep in mind that a million a year is middle class in New York City, so I don't think I'm overreaching at all.

Are there any guys who make 500K or more on this board? Any wives? Could you send me some tips? I dated a business man who makes average around 200 - 250. But that's where I seem to hit a roadblock. 250,000 won't get me to central park west. I know a woman in my yoga class who was married to an investment banker and lives in Tribeca, and she's not as pretty as I am, nor is she a great genius. So what is she doing right? How do I get to her level?

Here are my questions specifically:

- Where do you single rich men hang out? Give me specifics- bars, restaurants, gyms

- What are you looking for in a mate? Be honest guys, you won't hurt my feelings

-Is there an age range I should be targeting (I'm 25)?

- Why are some of the women living lavish lifestyles on the upper east side so plain? I've seen really 'plain jane' boring types who have nothing to offer married to incredibly wealthy guys. I've seen drop
dead gorgeous girls in singles bars in the east village. What's the story there?

- Jobs I should look out for? Everyone knows - lawyer, investment banker, doctor. How much do those guys really make? And where do they hang out? Where do the hedge fund guys hang out?

- How you decide marriage vs. just a girlfriend? I am looking for MARRIAGE ONLY

Please hold your insults - I'm putting myself out there in an honest way. Most beautiful women are superficial; at least I'm being up front about it. I wouldn't be searching for these kind of guys if I wasn't able to match them - in looks, culture, sophistication, and keeping a nice home and hearth.

it's NOT ok to contact this poster with services or other commercial interests
PostingID: 432279810

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THE ANSWER
Dear Pers-431649184:

I read your posting with great interest and have thought meaningfully about your dilemma. I offer the following analysis of your predicament. Firstly, I'm not wasting your time, I qualify as a guy who fits your bill; that is I make more than $500K per year. That said here's how I see it.

Your offer, from the prospective of a guy like me, is plain and simple a crappy business deal. Here's why. Cutting through all the B.S., what you suggest is a simple trade: you bring your looks to the party and I bring my money. Fine, simple. But here's the rub, your looks will fade and my money will likely continue into perpetuity...in fact, it is very likely that my income increases but it is an absolute certainty that you won't be getting any more beautiful!

So, in economic terms you are a depreciating asset and I am an earning asset. Not only are you a depreciating asset, your depreciation accelerates! Let me explain, you're 25 now and will likely stay pretty hot for the next 5 years, but less so each year. Then the fade begins in earnest. By 35 stick a fork in you!

So in Wall Street terms, we would call you a trading position, not a buy and hold...hence the rub...marriage. It doesn't make good business sense to "buy you" (which is what you're asking) so I'd rather lease. In case you think I'm being cruel, I would say the following. If my money were to go away, so would you, so when your beauty fades I need an out. It's as simple as that. So a deal that makes sense is dating, not marriage.

Separately, I was taught early in my career about efficient markets. So, I wonder why a girl as "articulate, classy and spectacularly beautiful" as you has been unable to find your sugar daddy. I find it hard to believe that if you are as gorgeous as you say you are that the $500K hasn't found you, if not only for a tryout.

By the way, you could always find a way to make your own money and then we wouldn't need to have this difficult conversation.

With all that said, I must say you're going about it the right way. Classic "pump and dump." I hope this is helpful, and if you want to enter into some sort of lease, let me know.

results

2007-10-13T21:59:00.000+08:00

i decide to post all my sch results here..
this is what i got for spending time studying.. fucked up results

MKTG1199
MARKETING PRINCIPLES TEST
PASS

ECON1016
MACROECONOMICS 1 MCQ TEST
PASS

ACCT2060
INTRODUCTORY ACCOUNTING MID- SEMESTER TEST
CREDIT

where's all the Di and HD i'm aiming for? lolx.. sighx..

黄中原 - 绝口不提爱你

2007-10-03T01:06:00.000+08:00

was looking at some videos on youtube and came across this song thru some taiwan variety show. without any doubt i teared listenin to it..

tuesday nite

2007-10-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

okie.. i have spent my whole day studyin for marketing test this friday..but seems like nth much went in.. oh well.. so i did these..

You Are 12% Emo

You're the furthest thing from emo. Sensitivity is not something you exactly cultivate... and you can't imagine weeping over song lyrics.

Are You Emo?

You Will Die at Age 70

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...
And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You Are 31% Jealous

You're occasionally jealous, but you wouldn't be human if you weren't
You keep your jealousy under control. You accept it, deal with it, and move on.
In fact, most people would be surprised to know that there's a jealous bone in your body.
So congratulate yourself for keeping your emotional impulses under control!

How Jealous Are You?

You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life.
But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it.
Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career.
Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

How Happy Are You, Really?

Your Love Type: INFP

The Idealist

In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship.
For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up.

Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive.
However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space.

Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ

What's Your Love Type?

You Are 62% Sexy

Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High

You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room.
You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing.

How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?

vexed

2007-10-01T02:24:00.000+08:00

can someone tell me whats happening in my life.

i still feel so aimless,useless,listless.

alot may think i come from a well off family but seriously i do have financial problems. maybe to pple out there, its not but to me it is..

i feel like tellin my dad to just sell away my car..

i feel like working and not study anymore..(at least i get paid rather den allowance)

i feel like i'm spending so little yet i always end up with nt enuff money..

and i'm owing pple money now.. and i dun wan to touch my other acc. cos i already did for 2.5k already..

my dad always ask if i got enuff money and i always say yes even when i'm left with 2bucks in my wallet.. tts it.. my car petrol is pumped by 10buck 10buck each time. so does my cashcard. i cant remember when was the last time my car had a full tank of petrol or my cashcard doesn't stop beeping asking me to top up.

and proj is due next fri.. and its not finished yet.. there's a test this fri and i haven study for it yet.. and exam is like 24days more.. and i haven even start muggin yet..

oh i am so vexed..i know i plan my schedule well but i'm still very vexed.. i guess for the next few days i will be home trying to finish my proj and study for the test.. i dun wan to fail.. i even tell myself i wanna do well.. but i dunno hw or where or when to start..

i'm just like a totally lost person sitting in the middle of no where even though i know i have to move..

where's my motivation?

where's the special thing in my life?

i'm so vexed..

my frens ask me to go for a long holiday.. but hw? do i have the moeny and time? NO!

sighx..

saosin - you're not alone

2007-09-28T02:07:00.000+08:00

It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching
For any sign of the ones he used to love
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left)
And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone
There's more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies shes been fed
She's searching for no one (but herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is here
And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out

(There is more to know)

We're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

(So tell me)

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
You're not, you're not alone

错了再错

2007-09-13T02:05:00.000+08:00

退到了绝境再退破碎到不能破碎
能挽回什么你就不肯说
我只能猜疑却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲绝望是你赐给的安慰
为何你说谎我却受惩罚
你不如就用刀刺下
我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错
不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你换着活你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破
爱或痛彼此纠结悲和我无法分解
厌倦的疲累成了一片黑
伤痛都已无法消灭
泪水滋润着泪水背叛是你另一种慰藉
完美的借口泪无辜留下
你不如用乱箭射吧
即使我头也不回这悲剧猛向我追
情愿你全部摧毁别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没
给我的爱像一根绳索
你放手却捆住了我
不甘心不闪躲全为了失真的承诺
为什么连谎言你也给刺破
为什么连谎言你也不说

what happen

2007-09-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

sighx.. seems like recently i have been feeling so lack of self confidence.. scare of doing so much stuff..

maybe there's too much things happening in my life nw..

maybe all these while i do lack of self confidence but i just act like i can do it.. seems like i'm doing all these things not for myself but for my family and frens.. to prove to them.. haiz..

recently one of my fren wanted to drop out from U becos he found it too stressful, and also due to family and financial issues.. want to go out and work instead.. he think he has failed his parents.. even tot of committing suicide..

is this depression or stresS?

i dun really know what i want in life anymore now.. its like in a mess..
i wanna do well in sch.. but seems like i have a feelin no matter hw hard i try, i still wun be able to do it.. self belonging seems to be no where near me..

do i really wanna do this? do i........ sighx..

there seems to be so much out there waiting for me to do but yet i feel i am not capable of doing anything nw..

i wanna earn big money and be successful, take over my dad's business.. but can i?

can i really earn big money..

can i really be successful..

No is what i have been feeling lately..

doesn't seem to be motivated by anything anymore..

sighx....

and recently i think i have been spending so much i totally lack of self discipline on my spendings.. now i'm left with 10bucks till next mth.. hw to survive.. its only 9th of Sept..

hw to pump my petrol, pay my hp bill, top up cash card.. i can forgo my meals and just eat whatever i find at home.. but those expenses tt i have to spent.. where do i find income.. sighx.. and i still need to save up 2.3k..hw to save when i'm spending so much..

maybe its true, though i may have good income but i do spend alot too..
remember one of my fren actually help me "shuan ming" and was told, though i may have different incomes, but i do spend alot..sighx..

start to worry so much... worry financial issues, study issues, etc etc etc..

maybe i'm just stressed over the coming tests and sch and everything..
or maybe i'm just finding excuses for myself..

sighx..why do i write all these rubbish for....

Memories

2007-08-30T01:36:00.000+08:00

This particular episode for the taiwan serial 18 jin bu jin really remind me of my past relationship..kinda felt sad and tear when watching it..

do feel free to visit and watch this
here are the links

http://www.56.com/w45/play_album-aid-482948_vid-MTc2MjQ0OTM.html
http://www.56.com/w45/play_album-aid-482948_vid-MTc2MjU0NDA.html
http://www.56.com/w45/play_album-aid-482948_vid-MTc2MjY3MTQ.html
http://www.56.com/w45/play_album-aid-482948_vid-MTc2MjgwNTA.html

Who am i

2007-08-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

LEO MAN

He likes to comb his hair backward, open his forehead showing a dignify
facial _expression. His eyes is sparkle, but slightly showing laziness. He
walks firmly and slowly like a lion, confident and ego proud. Outside, you
may think he is kind and gentle person, but inside he is a strong and
secure person. If he is frighten, he will re-act and respond right away.
His words always seem normal but mostly imply "order and demanding". He
will not talk fast, or can not talk fast, neither walk fast. In a crowd or
at work he will act normally, but not for long you will see him standing
out of the crowd and be a center of attention with his words, or his
action.

You might think he is a shy guy, but deep down inside he wants to power
over his family and his friends. He just waits for that right moment. Do
not take what is his, and do not order him, or else you will see a fierce
lion. He respects elderly and senior, but will never bow down and accept
like a looser for he will rather die than loose his dignity.

He talks bluntly even on an occasion that he should not say such thing. He
is a compassionate guy and always look at other people on a bright side. He
likes people to listen to him. Even he has such a blunt and bold
personality, he could easily reach his goal without making any enemy.

Once disagree with him on something, he can be very up set like a rainy
storm on a summer day. It will only last a short time, then he will be back
a cheery merry person again. He is a bright and witty guy, and he will not
put any efforts on something that he thinks it will not work and waste his
energy. He is a good planner and can well manage his job assigned. When he
gives order, he expect them to be carry out exactly. He is the leader type
that the followers love.

He can give other people advice and solve problems for other people well,
except his own mess. He can be easily hurt by other people especially if
you do not trust or respect his ability. You could compliment him sometimes
and make this lion be your kitty with no difficulty. He is not a good judge
for he listen to many people and tend to belief all sides.

You can hardly see a Leo man with no woman by his side. If you see him
alone, he could already have a love one in his heart, or just broken up
with one. Because he is very proud, he can change many girl friends. He
will do many things for the woman he loves, but loosing his face is not one
of them. Leo man can not live without love , because for him Love is a ray
of Light.

He likes people to rely on him, it's make him feels "in power". He may
complaint if he is asked for favor, but deep inside he is happy that you
asked him. If you offer to help him , he will refuse you right away.

When he is broke , he can find money still. He is not careful with his way
of spending for he has fun with spending money and happy to buy what he
likes. He lets other people borrow money from him easily even if he has no
money, he will run to his friend to borrow money for you. He likes first
class , first quality of everything.

He can work hard like a mad dog, and sometimes can be lazy like a lazy
sleepy cat. When he works, he is very serious. When he parties, he can be a
party animal. If he ask you out, you will sure have a fun and jolly time.

He will take chance with his love life, so if you know how to handle him,
you will win. If he is your love one, it won't be a romance novel. You have
to be ready to calm him down when he over reacts to small matters because
your cool stability will control and ease his mood. If you can not handle
or understand him, your relationship will be like a demolition zone, a on
and off relationship till all your friends tired to hear about your
breaking up and making up.

Beauty is always in the eyes of the lion. You have to be dignify to walk
with the lion king. Your looks is part of his image and ego and he is very
proud about it too. If you want his attention the first time you meet, you
better be astounding attractive. If you have a first conversation with him,
you have to show him how much you adore his thinking. He likes to talk and
not knowing that he likes to talk about himself.

20th Aug

2007-08-20T01:21:00.000+08:00

Its my bday today.. Happy birthday Leland..
23 yrs..

bad day..

2007-08-16T03:41:00.000+08:00

sighx.. i feel so alone again..

hate this feeling..

today started off really badly when i overslept and didn't go to sch.. fucking pissed off.. i had 2 alarms on but yet it seems like they didn't rang at all.. and i slept till lessons almost ended.. fucked..

den next thing i know.. just got to know something.. kinda sad.. kinda.. dunno how to express this kind of feeling..
dunno to pek chek or pissed or angry or sad or watever..

den what happen next? parents come back and niam me for nt goin sch.. say till as if i purposely miss sch today.. which i didn't.. for god's sake i wanna do well in sch this time round.. how the fuck would i wan to miss sch.. missing 1 lesson means u will miss out alot.. damn it.. i think i will wan to buy few more alarm clocks put around my room..

what next.. oh well.. went out to mod on my car.. painted my brake callipers today.. everything went well before the stupid paper tape got stuck between the brake calliper and brake disc.. spend me 3hrs to finally dig that stupid piece out.. wth..

really doesn't seem to be my day..and by right shld be goin zouk.. but in the end cancel.. great..

sighx...

sometimes i just wan to be alone driving around lookin at pple and watever they are doing.. especially when i'm quite down in mood today.. and i actually spent the whole day with my car..

but yet sometimes i just feel so alone.. haha.. so contradicting.. haiz.. maybe i really need someone.. but den think think.. actually i'm still afraid of relationships, etc...

arrgghhh i guess i shld just stick back the same thing.. work hard earn money.. study hard get good results.. and play hard without any burden.. maybe tts the good thing of being single..

why... why like this.. i just dun understand.

Happy National Day

2007-08-09T20:31:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Day Singapore....

looking at the parade this year remind me of my participation last year. The last time to be held in the National Stadium.. so much hard work and sweat.. but all worth while

Alone

2007-08-04T02:45:00.000+08:00

I'm home alone once again.. not like it didn't happen before or i didn't blog about it before but i just feel alone.. hate this feeling..

parents overseas, sister married.. seems like most of the time i will be home alone. cleaning the house, water plants, cook my own meal etc etc etc..

sch's tiring..

hate being alone.. sighx

~ to 2007 july 26th

2007-07-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

My pet fish passed away this morning..

Loving memory

its zheng my car day..

2007-07-15T01:30:00.000+08:00

What a day... tired.. hmm before updating what happened today.. lets talk about what has been happening the past 1 week..

hmm actually nothing.. work and work and work.. oh yah wed did went mambo.. was ok i guess.. as usual.. nothing much special already lolx..

alright lets talk about what happened today.. morning went paya ubin do my car.. change a set of new avanti racing 15" rims.. was thinking of changing to 16" but den wait car no power.. so still stick with 15" cost around 600+++ with bridgestone new tires.. lolx.. got alot of discount on the wheels.. shld haven been 700++

oh well.. loved my rims now.. sleak.. nice..

went off to get a drop in filter.. fix it up quite nicely.. cost me 90++.. which actually cost 100+

lolx..

after that went to a secret place.. got my under bar.. struct bar no stock.. but oh well.. got 19% discount total for those 2 stuff..

wanted to change my signal light bulbs but no stock.. have to wait till next week..
after tt went to wash car. den went down simpang before goin airport to fetch Meiling with ym and yx..
after that went AMK cos ym's bro car cannot start.. must go kick start.. after that went back hougang eat porridge before washing car again..

crazy over my car now.. den pump petrol and i'm home.. since no gf.. might as well show my tending loving car to my car lolx..

monday or tue gonna fix my bars, wed is sis's wedding, thursday morning get spring lower my car, sat go for alignment and maybe do some vs wiring.. termalstat gonna change, and maybe try to figure out how to do the air cooler.. hmm..

070707

2007-07-07T03:46:00.000+08:00

its a nice date today..

but sad to say there's no one to spend this wonderful date with me..
went out with frens for rounding. shant say where..

saw alot of cars.. alot of racing tonite.. but there's 1 accident on the road den ended all the fun..TP all came and scattered.

thinking of changing my car parts.. so much to change.. but do i have enuff cash? sighx.. how many mths must i save up..oh well..there's the rims tt can cost 300 to 600.. exhaust tts cost 650... trottlebody tt cost 160.. spoiler tt cost 180.. maybe i'll just change the rims and exhaust and see hw.. time to save up some money now..

sighx.. though was out having fun.. suddenly i felt kinda lonely again while driving. maybe my frens mention afew pple and tt triggered this feeling..

am i still recovering from all the hurt i got..trying not to think so much.. dun wan to tear again.

just feel very lonely.. very very lonely.. if only u were here. if only everything was slower.. if only i was faster.. if only things never changed.. if only i could hold ur hand.. if only u are the one.. if only ....

JJ's Hai Pa..the lyric is so beautiful.. just writes everything i feel now.

no mood to blog anymore.. haiz.. its saturday.. what can i do? what could i do? if only u were here.. sighx..

害怕

2007-07-04T20:38:00.000+08:00

wu~~~~~~~~~~~wo~~~~~~~~~~~
我突然觉得有点怕
爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开
我们的想法落差
*我的爱
是说停不能停
已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的
爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少你需要的爱
我不再
去执拙我是谁
我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的
竟还没让你相信是爱情
左右你我
而哭泣都是因为爱
也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有你
这网里我也撑着
拼了命的守着

National Service

2007-07-01T14:29:00.000+08:00

Wahahaha just had a new hair cut.. ok tts not important. its sunday and i'm at home with nthing to do. most prob will do some data entry..

anyway guys u shld go get today's sunday straits times newspaper.. cause there's a whole set of papers on 40yrs of national service.

it sure brought back memories of the time i was about to be enlisted. the long sad ride on the penguin to tekong. handling up our ICs for registration. Goin to the audi for the vow.. saying bye to my parents after the stupid chicken rice lunch together. den get my barang barangs up to my bunk..

got to know my buddy. get our hair cut botak. doing all those shit stuff.. and finally pop 3mths later. seems just yest tt i enlisted and yet 2yrs of national service life have just past. 2yrs of my life was given to singapore. lolx..

anyhow gers out there.. u shld go read it too.. its a good chance to let u gers know what we do and what we suffer and at the same time know more about the 2 freaking yrs tt we had to serve.. so stop complaining if we book out in the weekends complaining tt we are tired.. cause we are really tired.. lolx

Chaoz..

wth

2007-07-01T05:21:00.000+08:00

It actually took me 2hrs to figure out this simple html.. stupid scrollbar.. man too long never touch html.. everything also forget.. lolx..

its already so late.. and i have to wake up at 1030 to go have my hair cut..
ahhhh.....
5hrs of slp left.. damn it..

LUTHER VANDROSS

2007-07-01T03:10:00.000+08:00

I'd Rather

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,

I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoooo.....who holds my heart

Brand New

2007-06-30T05:35:00.000+08:00

Ok if pple who are actually keepin a lookout for my blog you would have noticed my template layout of my this new blog hasn't change at all.. the only missing stuff are the old posts on the old blog.. but rest assured i'll do some changes to it but not now cos its already 536am darn tired..

welcome to my new blog.. basic changes i'll do is maybe just changing the colour. Maybe i'll get something new out of this blog soon if i have the time.

Furthermore to make it look more like my blog still.. i reposted the last entry of my old blog.. lolx..

anyhow thanks for still keeping a look out at my blog..and just remember this is the new URL for my blog... =D

Wait for you

2007-06-30T05:32:00.001+08:00

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.